It's been one month since I completely turned my life upside down and backwards. I did what many Americans dont have the luxury to do right now, which is to leave one job and immediately join another. I feel so blessed to have this opportunity, yet honestly it was one of the hardest decision ive ever made in my life. I nearly had a panic attack daily in the weeks leading up to the big day. If you've never resigned from a perfectly good job, then the anxiety involved is inexplicable. Luckily I have a lawyer brain for a husband who gave me good advice on logistics because I would not have representation in the room (honestly, we thought of that). Once it was over, I could finally breath a sigh of relief for the first time in months. For some background, in the financial industry when you leave a firm you must immediately leave the premises, and take with you only the names, phone numbers, emails and addresses of your clients. So, my sigh of relief was short lived, as we left Liberty Park for the last time, and headed over to our new life in the Colonnade.
So why did I leave a perfectly good job? The reasons go far beyond what I could express is a blog post, but the overlying theme is a better opportunity all around. I will admit this past month has not been easy. Business disregards friendships, and unfortunately this departure has severed relationships that I thought were unbreakable. It breaks my heart, but I have to remind myself that there's no crying in business (until you get home to your wine...). So the past month have seen it's ups and downs, but im now a legitimate business owner in charge of my practice within the realm of a larger business (Bridgeworth Financial). The logistics of that is a bit harder to explain, but myself and my business partner now have payroll to meet along with rent, postage, printing ink and the like. It's overwhelming but amazing at the same time.
Amiss the chaos of the past month, I have seen moments of serenity that have kept me on my feet. One of these such moments came earlier this week when an older woman who is a client of the firm, and now a new friend, wanted to hear about some of my trials and tribulations dealing with my previous firm. I explained it had not been an easy transition, but we were doing well and somehow landing on our feet despite having many odds against us. She just smiled and then did something very unexpected. She starting quoting Kipling. (Kara, you would have been in heaven). Embarrassingly I wasn't familiar with the poem as she recited parts of it verbatim, but then again I studied the people that wrote the words, not the words themselves, so I quietly listened.
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IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son! |
"If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster and treat those two impostors just the same." That verse completely sums us the past four weeks for me. I really should include more British lit in my life.
A quick word about the new place. Like I said, i'm with Bridgeworth Financial. We can be found
here. Unfortunately for me, we took
these pictures ten pounds ago several months ago, so i'm not quite myself. I clearly needed a change if i was willing to go through a professional photo shoot (complete with a makeup artist, so cool) 6 months post twins. Oh well. In addition, our office is beautiful. There really isn't another way to say it. The partners that designed it are women, nuff said.
SO, in conclusion. Im happy, re motivated, exhausted and fulfilled all at the same time. This place is my future and im so excited to see where it will go.
